Jamie Moon talks about meditation in the 12 steps.I tried meditation and I just can’t do it. I pray for another sober day and thank god for a sober day. We hear these kinds of statements all the time in treatment, too often from our alumni. In the Eleventh Step we, Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood God, praying only for knowledge of God’s will for us and the power to carry that out.
So let’s start with the meditation trier and quitter. I was one. I had all kinds of excuses. “I don’t have the time. My mind is just too busy to do meditation. Listen, I don’t have pictures in my mind, when I close my eyes all I see is black. Etc. etc. etc…” Somehow I completely missed the point of meditation. I cannot be aware of my intuition, which is conscious contact with God, as I understand God. Intuition has been called a wee small voice—but my experience says it is a sense feeling—not a voice. And that sense feeling cannot be noticed or will be dominated by a busy mind. One of the great benefits to meditation is the quieting of the mind.
The ego-mind is always in the past or the future, which makes us unconscious of the present. Through prayer and meditation we are working in conjunction with Step Ten to maintain productive and positive actions in the present. This cannot be accomplished with our minds constantly in the past or the present. The most powerful result from meditation is conscious control over ones thoughts. We are either in control of our minds or our minds are in control of us. And that is a definition of insanity.
Conscious contact means that we are consciously making contact, i.e. via prayer and meditation. As in all things planetary we take the action and our Higher Power handles the results. Now I have found prayer to be the most interesting discovery.
There is a phrase in the bible that says we should pray unceasingly. I have discovered that whether I know it or not I DO pray unceasingly. Now I did not learn that in my ministerial training. I learned it trough my experience of and study of the Twelve Steps. You might ask, “How the heck, have you gotten that from working the Steps?” I have learned it through cleaning house—through the inventory process. What I saw was, my thinking and beliefs are what created my life experience. That being so, I had to ask myself by what power was that so? And having decided, as suggested from the statement, either God is everything or God is nothing—God is everything.
If God is everything then there is really only One Power—God. So then you might say that my thoughts and beliefs were prayers. Prayers that were answered or backed up by that only Power. Now that puts a whole new light on wanting to rest control of my mind. Now there is REAL motivation to think differently. And I do that through prayer and meditation. Next time I will discuss, praying only for the knowledge of God’s will for us and the power to carry that out.